SOME DAYS...
Some days are just harder than others. it's been 1 year and 7 months. I really don't write to get sympathy...even though I have such great friends and family that usually will send their love. I write because it's the only thing I can do. I don't want a pity party, although some think that's exactly what I'm asking for. I just need to let out my feelings. I am not brave or strong...PS...I never have been. I just have a lot more emotions on my plate than usual. "I feel like" there are people who are saying take that energy to the gym or put it in your work or ect. All "I feel like" doing is laying in the bed. Please don't confuse my emotional outburst as a cry for help or a poor pitiful me scenario. (I realize there are a lot worse situations out there than mine) I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am blessed. I have sooooooo many people that love me for exactly who I am. I just sometimes wish that I had a little bit more of the old me in me. The old me that didn't know real pain and loss. The old me that saw the bad in the world, but still had on the rose colored glasses inspite of it all. It's just something I'm dealing with and needed to talk out.
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I understand.
I found this quote, and it's helped me through the last year.
“Grace is available for each of us every day - our spiritual daily bread - but we've got to remember to ask for it with a grateful heart and not worry about whether there will be enough for tomorrow.”
Take it day by day...that's all you can do. I love you!!
Lindsay
Some days are just tougher than others and you need nothing more than to vent or get in the bed. No shame in that...I love you and look forward to seeing you in two weeks!
holidays are always harder. God will see you through it.Writing does help so keep it up. God bless
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