HAPPY MEDIUM

This is a break in the speed posting to talk about my (big surprise) feelings. I've been on a little emotional through the Holidays. There are so many memories that are deeply attached to my Dad with the Holidays. Please don't misunderstand, I love my family. They are precious to me and I am thankful for every minute I got to spend with them. I just miss my Dad. No one can take his place. I know time heals, but I just wish for a happy medium. (This post is seeming rather similar to my roller coaster post) There have been so many precious babies born in the past few months and I see the blessings they bring. Then in the same swoop I see another young lady losing her Dad unexpectedly 4 months before her wedding. I know you can't stop life and death. It is what it is. I think I just wish I could have normal emotions again. I wish for someone to love and someone to love me back. I wish I could be more like Paul and say, "Whatsoever state I am, therein to be content."