2-3-11 I had a really great group of thoughts that went together for this post saved in the notes section of my iPhone. Somehow they got deleted. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to take that as they weren't meant to be heard or if it was just an accident. Either way, here is what I do want to say. If I want to get right down to the root of my issues, everything comes back to unworthiness. I don't feel worthy to be loved. I know some of you are thinking I'm crazy for saying so, but this is the lie that Satan has gotten me to believe for so long. I've believed that when I didn't get a position I wanted, a boy I wanted, a job I wanted, a friend I wanted...it all came back to me not being worthy for that thing. I've played into Satan's game long enough. I won't allow him to bully me into thinking I'm not worthy of the blessings my Heavenly Father wants to bestow on me....because that's the key. I am a child of God. I am loved and worthy of love because He first loved me. You are too if Jesus is your Lord! Whew, let that soak in a minute. He loved me before He knew me. Jeremiah 1:5 says "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee, and before thou camest forth out of the womb, I sanctified thee" One of my other favorites is Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a hope and a future" Oh how wrong I have been to let my agenda change the perspective of how God feels toward me. "For I am fearfully and wonderfully made" Psalm 139:14 I'm reading a book right now called "I'm not good enough...and other lies women tell themselves" by Sharon Jaynes. It is filled with such great Scripture on this subject and has helped me realize that it's something everyone struggles with in some fashion or another...not just me! Friend, Let me help you to know there is One who truly LOVES you and He is enough! I'll leave you with a song called "How He Loves" by David Crowder Band which is pretty powerful. I'm so thankful that if no one ever did love me again, Jesus loves me and always will!